Into July...

Well!

Last time I updated I was expecting (or not expecting) my period soon and had encountered a little bit of an insulin mishap which was not fun at all.. Caused a lot of havoc for a couple days but it's all settled down (and great) now. More on that later though.. :)

So, I was convinced I was pregnant 1 day, and then feeling completely unpregnant the second day through my '2ww' (ugh, I hate calling it that, but it's quick!!)... I caved and tested on Thursday night, came up negative. Friday my period still wasn't here (although it wasn't due until Saturday) and Jamie and I found a $5 test at Pricesmart so we tested again, and another negative. Saturday afternoon I got my 2 cramps which tell me my period is coming and there was something there when I wiped so I assumed it was my period and went on with my evening (and had some drinkies!).... Checking later, I wasn't bleeding AT ALL... I was pretty concerned and then went to bed. Woke up at 7:30 on Sunday, STILL not bleeding, ugh! I was pretty nervous, but it came shortly after, so all is good. Hopefully we get it this month, this TTC stuff sucks! We'll have an early April due date if all goes as planned, exciting :)

Had another diabetes appt at the clinic on Tuesday, and I (think) that I have made the decision to go onto an insulin pump. I am really stuck between the new Minimed pump and the Animas Ping... So many positives and negatives to both. I love the 'ping' system, but HATE one-touch test strips, I will miss my freestyle meter so much! Although I guess I could still use my freestyle meter too, I dunno... I'm just so nervous about going onto a pump. I know it will be better when I am pregant, as hormone changes will not be easy to deal with on Lantus, but it's still such a hard choice... I am not by any means ashamed to be a diabetic, I will talk about it non-stop and I love explaining everything, but I just don't know if I really want to be a walking diabetes billboard. Where will I wear the pump if I'm wearing a dress? I know a lot of people stick it in their bras, but what if you don't have a big chest? That just won't work... Where would I have kept it on my wedding day? I am just so nervous about the small details like that. Jamie and I like to wrestle and play fight, what if he rips out my infusion set? I was on a pump for probably 4 years back in the day, and I am so commited to my shots, but will this be best for my baby? The nurses and dieticians and drs seem to think so, and I really can't think about just me. I gotta take care of myself in the BEST way possible... Even though I have really good control right now, every little bit makes a huge difference, and I think it might be worth a shot.

Anyways, I'm exhausted and am heading to bed, I'll try to update soon!